It Ends

So Friday night, I couldn't handle it. Its been way too long. Too long have I felt rejected, ignored. I HAD to find the answer.
It's a shame that I was right.

I asked : "Whats happening to us?"
Him: "IDK"
at this moment, I had my answer but I wanted to know why.
He didnt want a relationship right now. (like I couldnt tell)
He wants to be friends. I told him " You havent even treated me as a friend"
Seriously. He could've at least been nice when we were together. So many things could've been handled differently.

Because I'm 99% Human, I cried. OH DID I CRY. I went for a walk. I texted the A's, then the D's, then the P. Then the girls. I came back from my walk and IMMDEDIATELY changed my relationship status on Facebook. I cant STAND the relationship status thing. I dont know why I bother changing it and stuff.

Its amazing how I saw this coming. It wasnt a hard of a hit as I thought it would be. But when you look back, I prepared already. I was already eating emotionally. I was crying. I kicked and screamed. I vented. Road raged. Punched.Screamed all over campus. It was all happening... the only thing that didnt happen was the actual BREAKUP.

I basically dont know how to feel now. Im neither sad, nor happy. What to feel.. what to feel.

:/